What Is Wrong With Me?

 

 

 This is a question I have heard a lot these last three weeks or so.

If you’ve no medical issues (see your Dr. for that) or mental health issues (see a therapist with this) – then I’m pretty confident that answer is “Nothing. Nothing is wrong with you.”

• Can’t concentrate and/or can’t start or complete a task, especially “expected” tasks.
• No desire to do “this” or “that”.
• Drifting
• Perhaps unable to figure out what you did all day / the day went quickly
• Not wanting to engage with the mundane.
• Bouts of not wanting to engage with those not of energetic or spiritual “like-minded” people.

We Are New

Many of us are attempting to fit into the old patterns and old energy. Why? Because that’s what is...Read More

by Jan Toomer

 

They Need Our Help

 

 

 

 

Since the 2020 lockdowns, the children and teens/young adults have struggled. I would like to address the teens/young adults, mainly because they have fallen through the proverbial cracks.

About ages 17 through mid-30’s (generalized) are really struggling. A lot of these beautiful souls are energetically expressing hopelessness, having no direction, fear and thoughts with, “What’s the use? Why should I continue and/or try?” These souls in human form are in dire need of balancing and hope. But it’s more than that.

Energetically and spiritually, these young adults have not had a lot of experience with 3D Earth (duality, negative and positive) and are here for the coming 4D and 5D Earths. They are here to bring about the changes to 4 and 5D and they don’t have the past experiences to navigate a rather hostile environment.

This means these younger star children or starseeds are not well-versed in the trauma energy produced on 3D Earth. Their energetic and/or electrical systems are overloading and it is creating meltdowns and chaos within them. They are emotional receivers and boy are they getting bombarded with the general populace’s own roller-coaster emotional overloads. And anxiety, anger and depression energies are through the roof. Some are also trying to carry the weight of the world on their shoulders and it needn’t be that way. They need our help. *

If you are a seasoned adult (*grin*), can you remember the transitional time from...Read more

by Jan Toomer

Holding the Light

 

 

 

I’m still hearing from some people their concerns about all the negativity happening as well as their fears of lack, the fears of unknown, etc.

I understand that the chaos and uncertainty is attempting to be pushed onto and into us and is loud and in our faces.

So let’s look at some possible analogies:

• The yelling entitled person
• The persistent fear-mongering
• The squeaky wheel

The yelling entitled person is someone so full of fear that they try to intimidate and controls others (often fixating on one person). This is (energetic interpretation) due to feeling of not having any control in their lives, or of that someone is having more (more fun, more stuff, better clothes, etc.) than the entitled person (their own perceptions). They are bullies pure and simple.

The persistent fear-mongering from our governments and the media are to maintain the chaos and to create more chaos, all in the name of controlling the masses.

The squeaky wheel is the one who yells the loudest, but is not necessarily the most critical or important at the moment, but everyone listens and tries to appease them to shut them up.

While the bullies, fear-mongers and the squeaky wheels are in-your-face and demanding your attention...Read More

by Jan Toomer

Energy Update - September 11, 2022

 

  ~ Mind, Body and Energies Are Tired, and More ~

Keywords

• Scattered
• Unfocused
• Drifting
• Lethargy / unmotivated
• Tired – physically as well as tired of 3D stuff
• Extremely vivid dreams – If you remember your dreams
• High pitch ringing in ear(s) – downloads
• Losing/lost interest in engaging in 3D B.S., 3D Earth games, 3D monotony, drama

 I Am So Over It!

We are gaining more distance from the weight and pull of the third dimension. Between pulling away and the increase of energetic downloads, we’re tired and just don’t feel like playing or expending energy in the heavy, chaotic and tumultuous third dimension’s illusion of reality anymore. We are losing (have lost) interest in engaging in the 3D B.S., 3D Earth games, 3D monotony and drama. This is showing up as feelings of being scattered, unfocused, feeling like one is mentally adrift and/or feeling lethargic or unmotivated; again, not wanting to engage with 3D.

We’re also experiencing – for those who remember their dreams – a rather large uptick in experiencing very...Read More

by Jan Toomer

Emotional Toxic Waste Dump Site

 

 

There are some people who only contact me when their life gets rough. That is a compliment to me.

Then there are those who will use you as their emotional toxic waste dump site. I know because I had allowed it for years. These types of relationships (and I use the term loosely) are one sided and they usually only call on you when they feel their life has gotten rough, but you get the added extra of them using you without thought of whom they are dumping their emotional toxicity on.

Now, I’m not talking about friends who you enjoy lifting up and they uplift you; where it’s reciprocal.

The types of dumpers are varied. You can have, for example: the users and takers...Read More

by Jan Toomer

Energy Update - August 20, 2022

 

 

 ~ Dark Night of the Soul? ~

Keywords and/or “Symptoms”*

 

• Either deep sleeping or the extreme opposite – insomnia
• Exhausted not matter how much sleep you get
• Hungry – eating more than usual
• Possible Mandela Effect incidents (usually small incidents)
• Cranky or irritable
• Slowing down; doing less
• Questioning working for the “Man” or “Corp”; it no longer seems to fit you
• A sense of urgency
• Soreness

(* If not a medical issue. Please see your physician for any medical concerns.)

Many experienced a lighter, freer, unencumbered feeling for three or four days with the 8/8/22 Lion’s Gate.

It may have felt like we were then kicked out of that comfortable energy, but we really weren’t. We were, however, given an uplift and slight reprieve from all of the heavy load of incoming energies of late. After our slight reprieve, it was then time to move back into those energies – full bore – which included and includes sun activity, such as solar flares, and the planetary energetic influences.

So Much Negativity Out There

This is a complaint I hear often. As we keep adjusting to the energies sent to us to help us on our journey, I would ask that you please remember that negativity, horrors, strife, etc. sells news and the fear-mongering is used to control the masses.

There is equally – if not more – positive going on as well, but the news industry (generalized) doesn’t make more money on the good stuff, so you don’t hear about it as much as the negative stuff. So please don’t focus on the negative and fear-mongering stuff. It does lower your energy and can hold you down.

Why am I bringing this up in an energy update? Because we have/are entering another “Dark Night of the Soul” as we once again are asked to look deep within and heal self; to let go of the unhelpful programming we accepted over our lifetime.

If you’ve had a pretty significant Dark Night of the Soul in the past, you may experience a mini-Dark Night of the Soul. Some may not experience it at all this time around.

If you are experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul, you may experience depression, hopelessness, question “Why am I even here? What’s the use?”, questioning your mere existence on Earth. Please don’t stay in this too long. You can acknowledge that/those thought(s) and release them; not hold onto them and continue to play or stay mired in that muck.

And if you stay stuck, there is absolutely no shame in seeking a therapist to help you through this; they are trained to help when we get stuck.

What’s The Purpose of the Dark Night of the Soul?

If you don’t stay stuck in it, it’s a way to ... Read More

by Jan Toomer

None of Your Business

 

 

 

 I do remember the angst I experienced not only because of being a teen, but a teen with – what I thought of at the time – a horrible huge secret.

I was also a white northern female whose family moved to the South. I hadn’t been raised to see skin color, or to think lesser of any who appeared better, or worse, off than I. In other words, I had a big ole’ target on my back. So we could add in bullying and shunning to the teen experience.

And my secret…which really wasn’t a secret, though I tried...was about my abilities. That’s where the name calling and more shunning came in. I was the “odd” one, or “freak”, etc. I’m sure you get the gist.

I’m not complaining – I’m explaining. As teens through to young adulthood, or longer, we are pressured to conform, to “fit in”, to succeed, to follow the masses. Me? Growing up,  I just wanted to be a wallflower; blending in with the backgrounds and hoping no one noticed me. I think I got pretty good at it eventually.

Anyway, my point being, we were pressured; pushed to not be ourselves. This brought fear about what the others would think of us; we were judged. Many strove to be liked, or like me, just left alone.

And many people brought those fears and insecurities forward well into their adult life; worried about being judged and perhaps judging others not “like” you.

I got over it, but I wish someone had pulled me aside and gave my younger self the message that I bring to the table...Read More

by Jan Toomer