The Haze of Uncertainty

 

 

 Living in the haze of uncertainty seems to be a popular theme again. Some people are feeling a bit like floating in limbo – stuck in an in-between space, not sure where to turn. Why is this happening?

Energetically, we are working on:

1. Restructuring the physical world and learning new, healthier ways.
2. Turning inward and learning to KNOW your own energy. What's yours and what's someone else's.
3. Trusting self over anyone or anything else. Please read that again and give it some thought.

Pre-Covid, the Other Side had really pushed for us to... Read More

by Jan Toomer

Blue Wolf Reviews -- Re-Writing My Future: A Stroke In Time

 

Re-Writing My Future: A Stroke In Time

REVIEW BY Janet Mawdesley June 7, 2021, 9:00 am

Having a stroke in your early thirties is a lifestyle altering event, let alone when you are a person who was born with the additional skills of a multi-talented sensitive. Jan Toomer is such a person and when she suffered an event that saw her in a coma for two weeks, returning to everyday life seriously unable to remember much of her former life, unable to understand what had happened to her and unable to continue life as a ‘work-aholic’, her life changed dramatically.

In Re-Writing My Future: A Stroke In Time she documents her journey, her frustration at remaining undiagnosed for many years and the incredible help and hope she discovered on her healing journey. Intimate times in her life are shared, not in self-pity but as a means to reach out to others caught in a similar situation, offering her journey and understanding to all in an effort to help others.

Beginning with her abusive childhood as a child with unusual abilities and a parent who did not understand filled with fear and hatred, she details her life as her various skills developed, not for one minute understanding that not everyone could ‘talk’ with the frogs in the swamp at the end of the garden, and that trying to fly down the stairs was considered as seriously dysfunctional.

Her teen years were spent trying to escape from these ‘gifts’ and once she really ... Read More

What A Mess That Was

 

 

 

 The weather was nice when you bee-bopped into the grocery store to get your shopping done.

You came across:

An angry man muttering to himself in the canned goods aisle.

An old woman scowling as she looks over the baked goods.

A woman trying to keep track of the cost of the items going into her cart while her kids are bickering and whining.

A man with hunched shoulders trying to not make eye contact with anyone lest they see the emotional pain.

The cashier whose smile doesn't reach her eyes.

When that angry looking man stopped in front of the green peas was reading the labels on each brand...Read More

By Jan Toomer

The Devil Has My Name

 

 

 I was awakened by a man talking to me.

“The Devil has my name.”

“Um...what? Who are you? Do you know what time it is?” I scrubbed my face in frustration. Sometimes the deceased or ghosts forget that the physical body needs sleep.

“The Devil has my name,” he repeated.

“I don't get it. What does that even mean?”

I felt his energy shift as he prepared to tell me his story...Read More

by Jan Toomer

Dark Side of Self

 

 

Why have I been writing so much about abuse, civil and human rights, narcissism and self doubt? Because we are working on healing and releasing the past, both for ourselves and Earth. Not only are we supposed to be working on that, but we are also working on bringing peace and balance to our whole self. This means no more ignoring the dark side of self.

Now this doesn't mean feeding the negative or dark side of self, but it does mean acknowledging that part of yourself.

We live on the physical planet of Earth. Three Dimensional Earth is the hard school or knocks. Earth is the planet of duality: yin yang; negative positive; dark light; fear love.

In these unprecedented times, all of the negative traits of... Read More

by Jan Toomer

A Letter To My Father

 

 

 Many know of my past struggles with my mother and how I used Ho'oponopono to heal the imbalanced energy – not only within myself, but also my energy to and towards my mother.

This past year I received pictures and other Jan-related items that my mother had kept. In the items was a letter I'd written to my father and sent in a packet , though my resume and a brief on my family was missing.

I did have hopes back then when I wrote it and mailed it to Dad, but, as shared in my book Re-Writing My Future: A Stroke in Time, it appeared to have been intercepted by my mother. She replied rather aggressively to the letter I sent to Dad.

As I re-read these, I realize I hadn't been triggered. I really did heal...Read More

by Jan Toomer

 

Beware the Cult Mentality

 

 

 Over the last few years the Team shared messages of how we should be aware of elitism, separation, segregation and the repeated message to be careful of “us vs them”. They also worked to remind us to think for ourselves and not blindly follow anyone.

Today they bring the message again, only this time they've added, “Beware the cult mentality”. Cult mentality isn't only found in religion or religious beliefs.

Tina Rodia for Penn Today wrote, “Cult is a term that doesn't refer to religion at all, but is ... Read More

by Jan Toomer